Suddenly we found ourselves in the midst of paperwork for
two agencies. The following week another
fear hit us…it was a lot of money to risk especially since the statistical
chances of this actually working are not high.
We were presented with a different option but still felt drawn to “our”
embryos and the way God had opened doors that only He could do. As we prayed, God did another miracle and we
received a scholarship that paid for a lot of our fees. We will never forget that God knew our fears
and our needs and met them so perfectly!
Again we thanked God for His confirmation that He was with us and that
we should keep on walking this road…
The month of April was filled with many meetings for our
homestudy process and medical clearances.
I needed medical clearance on three levels..my regular doctor, my ob/gyn
and then a fertility clinic. By God’s
providence, we lost our doctors here all at one time due to some changeovers in
February and God did a miracle just months ago by allowing a family doctor to
be willing to take on our whole family at his practice. Because of this changeover, I had all 8
physicals for all of us done right around the time we began the adoption
process…just another evidence of the hand of God. We had a bit of a medical scare after our
ob/gyn visit and were left waiting for another week before we would see the
fertility doctor and have an ultrasound.
That week was filled with a ton of “what ifs” in our heart as I truly
thought I may never have this chance to carry these embryos if what we feared
was true.
At our church, our book of the month is “From Good to Great
in God’s eyes” by Chip Ingram. When I
shared our story with a dear friend in the church, she remarked that we were
living out this book…taking great risks for God. The morning we left at 6am for St. Louis for
the clinic, I told Rick “I don’t feel like I’m doing anything great right
now”…my stomach hurt and I was scared.
Entering the waiting room of the fertility clinic was like walking in a
sacred place…I sat in the silence as I watched other women there and prayed in
my heart for them and that God would help them in their pain. I almost felt out of place there and did not
know what to say to anyone as we sat and prayed for God to make His will clear
on this visit. Finally, another woman
broke the silence and shared her story..she was in full time ministry and
wanted me to know she was praying for me after she saw me reading “Dream Great
Dreams” chapter of the book by Chip Ingram.
We shared our story and how we came here and she reminded us as our name
was finally called that she was praying for our journey and we told her we’d do
the same. It was neat to sit there and
in our nervousness (she had flown from far away to be there by herself while
her husband was overseas) to affirm that God had ordained this day for each of
us and He was going to be there with us no matter what the doctor said. Our fears were quickly calmed as our doctor,
a Jewish man, calmly and excitedly asked us to share our story of embryo
adoption and then reaffirmed our faith in God and our desire to “be fruitful
and multiply.” He assured me of full
medical clearance based on the tests I had had that morning. We just had perfect peace that this is the
place God had led us. As we went over
some details with the nurse later she told us that they wanted to know more
about embryo adoption. As a pro-life
clinic they work hard to assure that there are few embryos created that are not
used in procedures but they were interested to hear our details. She also then smiled and told us that our
story was amazing and we should share it with others…we were beginning to think
so too!
We had been gone for 12 hours and rejoiced in God’s green
light for medical clearance and leading us to this doctor. We were fingerprinted on the way home and
celebrated this day good day with our kids when we arrived home.
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